Money stresses me out. I think it stresses everyone out. But when I think about our farm, I sometimes feel overwhelmed at how much Bryan and I have to go... financially. Especially since we would prefer to stay close to family, need at least 40 acres to sustain ourselves, and need it all within a tiny budget. This combo seems almost unattainable.
This has been on my mind on and off for awhile now. Sometimes I feel optimistic about it all, other times I feel a bit frantic.
Bryan's job right now is amazing. It is preparing him in numerous many ways to start and run an organic farm successfully. It also pays all our bills; something we are very thankful for. But what it doesn't offer us is any saving for our future farm. That is sometimes hard for us to swallow.
This brings me to photography. I love doing it. I would continue to do it even if I didn't get paid for it. But here's a bit of honesty for you, I have this dream that my business will be able to give Bryan the farm of our dreams. I want so badly to play a part in giving him that.
We pray often about all this messiness. Because in the end, that's all we can do. And this is all so much bigger than us.
Bryan has a passion for people and sustainable farming. I have a passion for people and photography. In our personal opinion, we believe these things were given to us for a reason.
So for now we are putting our faith in that. That God gave us these desires and that they will be used.
And it's funny because once we've mentally put things back into perspective, things happen. Like a phone call from a friend offering to pay us well over what we make in a week to bring a bunch of triathlon equipment down to San Luis Obispo for the weekend. Getting paid to go on a mini-moon, yes please! Or getting phone calls from friends wanting to hire me to take pictures of them. And that's when we feel a reassurance that things will work out.
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Here's a few from our weekend.
